December 19, 2007

• Confidence as a leo.

  

  
  
  Define.
  
  What is confidence?  Confidence is a state of mental process that arises from considering if a person is capable of something. Confidence can be a self-fulfilling prophecy, as those without it may fail or not try because they lack it. Confidence is related to one's self esteem. When a person loses confidence they no longer trust in the ability to perform. Faith and Trust are synonyms of confidence when used in this sense. The lack of confidence causes a person to lose security and gain shyness toward one feelings.
  
  Self.
  
  While growing up in the Bronx. NY, I never had a great sense of confidence in myself. The reason could of been that majority of the cultures were mostly black and spanish, so I was alway put down because I was asian. In school I was probably the only asian in my grade ever since pre-K to eight grade. What I felt was that no one saw me or notices me. Think about for a second, how do you build your confidence when no one notices you? I grew up having low self-esteem which cause me to be shy. I never had confidence to do many things. Somethings were dancing at a school dance. Yes I was the kid on the side sitting or watching other people have fun. Then other time was asking a girl out. It felt like people would of laugh at me.

  Confidence had play an important role in my life when I was young which I wish I had. When I think it was pretty sad to think that I was ugly or something. As I move to New Jersey, I was surrounded by people who I could relate to. My friends had play a role on building my confidence up, it was like taking babystep. From being myself to going out with girls, I learn many things that made me who I am today. Through confidence I had a chance to learn many things in relationships and in life.

  Event.
  
  Today I had a sense of confidence while hanging out with my friends. We were talking about my xanga and how I alway start a entry with a theme. So we came up with a theme today and it turn out to be about confidence, lately my confidence came back. Everything in my life right now is falling together for the first time in a long time. So on this special day I had the confidence to be a CAMWHORE!

  

  
  
  Poem.
  
  RAWR
  Do you hear that?
  That's the sound of my lungs
  Shouting to be heard.
  
  I'm coming out in the open
  Saying what I want to say
  Things that I would never say
  
  RAWR
  All eyes on me
  I look around
  Attentions on me
  I fear no one
  
  Now I smile
  

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