January 16, 2008
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Waiting.
Define.
Our life, consist of waiting, whatever it is a question that needs to be answer or a closures that was never close. Sometime we don’t know what else do but wait, we are scared to face the facts. Maybe because we’re afraid the answers in front of us isn’t the one we were looking for. But in many cases we are waiting for somethings that will never have an answer to.
Self.
I been totally feeling lost lately, feeling as if half of me isn’t here no more. Maybe I’ve been thinking too much and dug myself in this hole again. I think it’s because it happen before and now it seem like it’s going to happen again. I’m looking for answer once again and denying the outcome. I’m waiting for a closures this time rather going months of deja vu. Why do things like this alway happen to me, I mean have you ever felt like your heart reach the highest point and then it hits rock bottom. Do you know how that feels? Not knowing what happen to that person, it makes you want to wait your whole life searching for the answer. I like to pretend that everything happen for a reason and hoping there will be an answer to everything if I wait it out. But what if it happen twice, what do you do? How much can this heart take.Please don’t leave me.
I’m I being selfish, not seeing the other side? Have I forgotten that it takes two hearts to be complete. I guess the only way for me to know is to wait once again.
Poem.
Everyday I wake up and I’m depressed
Won’t anyone help me?
A little voice in my head says
That I don’t deserve to be rescued
And I know it’s true, no matter what I try to do
It always ends the same wayI’m smiling, but inside I’m dying
I never let anyone see me cry
I’m just waiting to be rescued
Waiting here, but I’m starting to give upI’ll just say my goodbye,
Because I know I will alway,
end back at square one.
Waiting for you to come and save me
I know I’m begging,
But no everyone deserve to be put on wait.
Comments (12)
Poignant….
*p/s: The pool looks nice. But the girls who were playing in the pool looked even nicer*
omg, i totally get it. that’s all my life is, waiting. waiting for a cure, waiting for him to finally make up his mind, waiting for an answer, waiting for an absolution that will never come. i need to find me some patience, heh.
I was curious what song u may use hehe… it’s the one =] i send!
and hope your waitin is valuable .. worth it ^^ GOodluck !!!!!!!
i definently enjoy what i have but my parents dont understand that im not a kid anymore. they should reolize that i can make my own choices, even if they arent the best ones.
in the same boat how, exactly? =) because we both have a lot to say? heh…
i think no matter how old i am, 24 or 84, i’ll always have these same passions and feelings and most of all, depressions building up inside of me.
people think that being ‘emo’ is some kind of cool fad, that it makes you popular to be dark and dismal…
…but you know, i think i’m actually a GENUINE ‘emo’, if there is such a thing, because no matter how happy things can be, i always have a very somber note to my life and temperament…
anyway, those who’ve known me since my younger days know this WELL about me…
it’s just who i am.
surreal.Feline
Hi.
I am sorry it took me a little bit to respond to the lovely note, you had left me; I THANK YOU.
There is something about you that is so wonderful.
You seem so real- and down to earth, you know?
I mean… please don’t take offense when I say this (any male for that matter, please don’t take offense), but there are not too many males in this world who are as open with their feelings as you- and that’s awesome that you are. Heck, there aren’t too many males who even WRITE about their feelings, thoughts, etc. I dno’t know why, but males seem to acknowledge the issues, feelings, thoughts, etc etc. in their lives LESS, because they are male… and believe that ‘emotions’ make one ‘weak’. But that’s NOT true!!
Anyway, there is something unique and wonderful about you.
Thank you for my note.
please take care of yourself… have a good one, chico.
=D
If you ever need anyone to vent to, or whatever, I’m here.
~Veronica~
Ha….you know you are always first. How’d you even find me? I thought you were going to bed. LOL. I’m a blogger now..you inspired me.
you inspire people =) peopl realli enjoyed your blogged and find the good sides of you! ;P
wow.. what you write is amazing.. and really easy to relate to.. and i love this song!
thanks for the comment
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your writing is amazing. and the photos are too. thanks for the comments. i get what you’re saying. i just feeling angsty i suppose. living with my ‘rents can be really annoying they’re always on my case.
Thanks. I like your blurry waiting pic. Nice song.
i like your mind
it works somewhat like mine =]
lol =]